Day 41
Disaster has finally struck, I think it was inevitable. I sensed that this was coming as I've just felt under too much pressure with all the losing days recently. The last two days had been pure frustration due to the lack of movement and it all came to a head yesterday. I had full sized positions on in both the EURUSD & EURJPY and was away from the screens for about 15 minutes. When I came back I had been slammed in what was later reported to be the start of a hedge fund unwind of EURJPY which also hammered the EURUSD. I was down 50 pips before I even knew anything about it. Frustrated at how long it had taken me to get 3.5 & 1.3 pips the previous days and how easy 50 pips had been taken away, I just couldn't face the prospect of chipping away to recover. So I did the worst thing imaginable, I just let them ride, 'hoping' that they would bounce back up as has been happening a lot recently. Sadly for me it never happened and in fact the selling got worse and worse. When I finally could stomach no more I had lost more than half of the profit made in the project so far and I am now so far back (back to Day 19) I don't think I can stomach recovering in the same fashion. I've decided to review the whole project in light of the 41 days of experience I've obtained and redesign the parameters to address the problems I've faced.
In summary what I want to achieve -
1. Retain the goal of turning $10K into $250K in 1 year.
2. Probably retain the 10 pips per day idea in principle as it's a realistic goal, but I need to remove the pressure of recovering from losing days. Losing days need to be accepted and the way to accept them when they happen is to have a plan and goal that allows for them. Currently I don't really have that and that has led to this self sabatoge through lack of discipline. So I'm probably going to take a weekly view instead of a daily view. For example 50 pips per week instead of 10 pips per day. Not sure if this really helps, I need to think about it, but it might help psychologically which is the key.
3. Whether it's a daily view or weekly view I need to factor in more days of not trading. For example UK public holidays I'm just going to forget about trading along with golden week. I need to factor in more holidays and days where I just don't feel like trading so as to not force me to trade when it doesn't make any sense.
4. I'm going to look into the idea of using auto stop losses. I really don't like using them in forex as you get spiked out so much but yesterday was a classic case in point where the exit decision would have been made for me and I would have saved a lot of pips.
5. The other big problem with the way I'm trading at the moment is that there is always a chance of a big downside hit, like yesterday (although obviously it should never be as bad as it was), but a big upside bonus is limited as I'm taking the small pips every time I can get them. I need to think about how I can possible ride more upside, although so far my experiments with letting profitable whole or part positions ride has not been successful. This is where a weekly view might help me as combining a wide auto stop with a position that can run for a longer period without me watching the screen might be better.
So, the project is sadly on hold until I've redesigned the parameters with the same objective in mind but addressing all the issues I have had so far. I'm sure the end result will be better for it as I've been thinking for a while the way I'm trading at the moment is too hard to sustain over a long period.

